Streesful Lasts

Well, my surgery is now in 3 days and my doc's office hasn't called to cancel this one so I'm thinking it's going to happen this time. I kind of got over my freaking out stage after the other one was cancelled and had a few weeks 'off' from worrying but this last week before the surgery has been pretty bad. My blood pressure has been going up within the last little while and I'm sure this and work stuff and home drama hasn't been helping it. I finally caved and emailed my awesome PCP about meds and told him what my BPs had been (150s/902-100s!) and within a half hour I had not only an email telling me to come in STAT but a phone call at both my home and cell. I guess it was pretty bad. I was swelling up and had gained a lot of weight in a really short period of time. After going to the doc last Thursday I got put on a very small beginning dose of Lisinopril and had some blood work and and EKG done. All my blood work and EKG came back normal so my doc and I are kind of thinking its just all the stress in my life right now and my BP may go back to normal (which is high-normal anyway) after the beginning of the year when I expect stuff to calm down. I love Dr M. He always knows exactly how to treat me and what to say. He lets me be my bossy self and tell him exactly what I want and barring anything actually harmful it's done. So that night I took my first BP pill. Friday morning I woke up without swollen feet and ankles for the first time in a week. I stepped on the scale after my shower later that afternoon and holyshi*...down 11 lbs! Yea, that's how swollen I was. To loose 11 lbs overnight in water made me understand why I felt so bad. My BP had also started to lower to a low high and I'm getting better each day. Because of that crappy feeling and lack of money (due to the change of surgery and Jager the dogs cancer surgery) I haven't been able to fully live out my "last requests" like I had planned. I did get to go to Training Table for a Turkey sandwich no tomato and cheese fries with dipping sauce last weekend but it took a lot of begging of hubby and the boys were pretty bad. Not really...but its really about the food for me. I made a quick stop at Jimmy Johns for a sandwich before my nail appointment yesterday so that's crossed off the list. And I think C and I are going to drop the boys at my mom's and go to dinner at Olive Garden Tuesday evening for my 'last supper'. I still wanted to try Moochies but I guess that will have to wait until next year. I also have a whole bunch of work stuff I need to do and I really only have Tuesday in the office time to get it done. A huge report for my boss that hopefully we can bend to look even better in our favor so we can get rid of this horrible consulting firm that has a contract with us for another 3 years. Stress at work is probably one of the biggest reasons for my BP issues. I'm going to have a real hard time not being there for everything happening. Oh well. I've been reading as many blogs as I can find on people's experieces with this surgery and feel like I have a good idea of what to expect but also think I will never quite know until its too late. So far I haven't read one persons account saying they regret it so that is reassuring. I just want to sleep. I want more energy. I want to dream. I want to be able to move when I first wake up from an afternoon nap and not be completely paralyzed. This disease OSA, along with Hashimotos Hypothyroid and osteoarthritis is what stops me from moving and losing weight and being out with my kids and family and cleaning the house. I'm praying this surgery helps my OSA and I am one of the 95% success rates. I hope the new thyroid med I just changed to also helps and I'm one of the 60% that do better on it, a natural drug, than the synthetic I've been taking for 10+ years with little help. And if those two work maybe I'll have the energy to get out and loose some weight! Here's hopin...